hi!! i'm sonata, known as sunl1ghts0nata on twitter/x. call me by she/her pronouns, please. this is an accountability/tracking log for what i eat, but i might post other stuff on here in the "journal" section.
04/21/24: i wanted to start the aira diet by ninjidol today, but the person who agreed to do it with me made the decision to stop restricting and just eat how they used to. don't get me wrong, i'm really happy for them, and we're still friends!! i just lost the motivation to do the diet bc i don't have someone to do it with me. breakfast was 260 cals, lunch was somewhere around 290 cals, and dinner will be somewhere around 440. i also drank a glass of arnold palmer and 2 glasses of fruit juice, so that was around 225 cals. i'm still under maintenance, but i'm going to try to have my intake at 800 or lower until i have to lower the limit to lose weight. on the exercise side of things, i went on a 3-mile hike today!! the calculator i used said i burned 230 cals from that. also, passover is starting tomorrow... let's see if i can get away with not eating until the seder.
04/22/24, AM: i got forced to eat this morning. i ate an eggo waffle without anything on it, which was 100 cals. i'm probably not going to eat lunch because i'm going to have to eat a lot at the seder tonight. i used to love them, but i don't really like seders anymore. too much praying and food and other religious bs. i'll update you guys after it's done.
04/22/24, PM - 04/24/24, AM: writing this on the 24th. i ate lunch on the 22nd bc i was being a fat bitch, that was probably around 400 cals. at dinner on the 22nd i had matzahball soup and a bit of charoset as well as the 4 cups of grape juice/wine and other ceremonial stuff. estimated around 500-600 cal range? way too much, and i also had some cake which was about 150 cals. ate the rest of the cake for breakfast on the 23rd, then had a few snacks, as well as the same stuff for dinner (but less). the cal estimate would be around 850-950. today i ate around 300 cals (cake and a plum) for breakfast and started a fast until lunch tomorrow, as well as burning 160 cals on the treadmill. i'll let you guys know how that goes!!
04/25/24, AM: i broke my fast at dinner yesterday bc i had a feeling i was gonna binge today when i was supposed to be breaking my fast. started another one right after finishing dinner though, i'm almost 12 out of 40 hours through as of writing this. i'm going to have this fast be liquid and gum under 10 calories. i also didn't take the meds that make me gain this morning, and i'm gonna keep trying to stay off those until i see results or something bad happens.
04/26/24, AM: my fast has been going well so far!! i extended it to 60 hours, right now i'm 37 hours and change in and feeling great!! saying to my friends that i'll eat at home when i won't is making me a little guilty, but i really want to lose this weight. yesterday i dumped all my issues onto my ex-boyfriend in geometry after telling him about a weird dream i had (will put in journal section) and he got really worried for me... is it bad that i felt happy about that? whatever, if it is i will figure that out later. the problem is now that he knows about my ed, he's gonna try to make me eat more. don't want that. i'm crushing on him again and now i'm gonna be lying to him... don't like this at all but i don't wanna recover for anyone yet.